Prayered accident

I was the prayered accident,
Your pampered child:
Smitten and bowled over by your loving strength,
As you suddenly vanished into thin air,
I seek you:
In the house, On the streets, 
At the school, Within my insides!
I discover glimpses of you within me:
Your eyes in mine,
Your walk is mine, I am told.
Your sit in mine, I am told.
Yet, "you" are not found:
The majestic, yet kind,
The loving, yet strict,
The soft-spoken yet firm,
The blessed, yet humble you!
I summon up my pride
And beseech help to imitate you: 
Failing miserably,
My pride dissolves-
That I wrap myself in shame:
Unwarranted friends,
Unapproved habits,
To lose the you in me.
Much to my chagrin,
I discover
I don't exist without you
I don't exist without you
Here, I am, a mere survivor,
The prayered accident!