Tuesday, December 20, 2022

Words

 Words: 
Thought, Spoken, written, delivered;
Happy, Sad, angry, snappy, factual, 
The earth carries the weight of them:
Laboriously, painfully, grudgingly
Over generations she has carried;
Ours, our parents', our grandparents',
Our greatgrand parents', our great great grandparents',
Ever since Adam and Eve-
People gone, but the weight remains.
She yearns for silence:
A wordless, thoughtless, quiet;
A blotless, markless sheet of horizon;
A calm, vibrationless flow of air and water;
A pause for her to take a breath -
An exhale to burst them out and cleanse;
A moment of featherlight swim
In the cosmic ocean.

Monday, October 31, 2022

Whimsical 14: The era of my growing up

Our walk to your school is a routine habit - walking along that 7min trail. Boring and monotonous? Certainly not! No instant with you is boring and monotonous. We are engrossed in our daily conversations - Some days, these are one-way monologues of advise or repeating reminders. Some days, these are exciting, happy conversations - just like today.

We ran past the signals and reached the other end of the river of vehicles, we walked across the nursery school and were about to hit the circular multi-purpose hall. Some days, we jump across the circular parapet, priding ourselves for our skills. Some days, we walk around the circle and have fun chasing. Some days, we run through to race against time. 

Today, we chose to walk around the parapet, and a crow cawed - the familiar, matte finished kaaa. I began: "Do you know? When I was a kid, we believed that a crow cawing is an announcement for the arrival of an upcoming guest". You went, "What?! You didn't know if your guests would arrive?". I replied, "Yes, remember, we didn't have mobile phones then. We didn't even have desk phones. How would we know if guests were arriving?". 

You asked, "Oh! How about mails?". I quickly snapped (like I always do recently), "Dei! There was no internet!". You intervened, "No ma! I am not talking of the e-mails, I am referring to the postcard mails". "Aaah! Yes, we did receive a lot of letters, but they were not very specific of the date of arrival etc. As these mails were delivered only after a few days, last minute changes to travel plans could not be communicated"

Then I continued, "Can you imagine a life without internet?". You went, "Wow! I want to live in such times". "Okay", I said, "How about a life without mobile phones?". Pat came your reply, "Wow! I want to live in such times. We can just live in the open space, like a forest!"

I couldn't stifle a laughter. "Dei! We are not referring to stone age. This was just 30 years ago, and we grew up only in houses"

"I know ma! You lived in houses made of wood and thatched roof"

"Dei!"

By this time, we reached school and you greeted the two who you usually greet, while I was grinning as wide as possible.

Tuesday, October 25, 2022

Whimsical 13: You ask

 You ask: There are so many lives around us, how is it decided where each life should live and in what form? For eg., of all the life forms, how is it decided that I be born as a human. Into this home? Why do we live and perish after a few years?

-17 July 2022


On July 26, 2022, you have read some science books and said you have found your answer in reproduction. I appreciate you, and ask how does reproduction ensure that you have certain characteristics. You have then began exploration on characteristics

Wednesday, October 5, 2022

Whimsical 12: Generosity at its best.

With the shared love for mango, you and I devour on the mangoes everytime the house sees one. This leaves the dad bereft. It has been years since he ate a decent full mango, despite he buying them whenever he sees a sane mango :-P
Same goes for mangosteens. So, yesterday, when dad bought a bag of mangosteens, you and I decided to share them between the two of us. We counted, and saw that there were 15. I offered: "Here, I give you a big share - take 8, and I will take 7".

Without a thought he replied, "No amma! Lets each take 7 and give 1 to dad. Poor thing, we don't share mangoes also with him. It will be very mean if we don't share the extra mangosteen too"

So, ladies and gentlemen, we generously shared a mangosteen with the dad. We are generous. We are generous.

Wednesday, September 28, 2022

small kindness


 

Revisiting old wounds

 


If time were a road

We were on a train. You were jumping around, when I randomly questioned, "If time were a road, ..." Without a blink, you completed, "I would walk back to my baby days, ofcourse you'd join me too!" I can't fathom what gives you this confidence?!

Then you said, "I will either fast forward to go live in Australia, or atleast I will walk back to the one week we stayed there".

And you continued, albeit a bit sadly, "I will go back to today morning to correct the spelling"

I so wish we find a time travelling vehicle soon.

Friday, September 2, 2022

Breathhhh

 Have you observed the beauty in breath?
The slow cresting,
Followed by an even slower trough;
Repeated Tens of Thousands of times per day,
Day in and day out:
The monotonous, contented repitition:
Murmerless, Complaintless, emotionless,
Labourless, painless, Resistantless;
Loveless, desireless, tasteless,
Courageless, requirementless, conditionless.
Imagine the several billion people living this,
Imagine the several billion animals living this,
Imagine the several billion birds living this,
Imagine the several billion trees living this,
Syncing with the Great Mother Earth's Breath
As she waves in and waves out 
Through the great big Oceans!
If only we breath in unison,
Will it not be a wonderfully breathtaking world!!
-02 Sep 2022, 11:25AM

Thursday, August 25, 2022

Short Story: The perfect table

 It was 930AM- the shipping agency had notified that their service van is on the way to delivery. Anne had taken the day off. She called up the courier service to check on the exact delivery time. This is the 1000th time she's looking in the mirror, beaming with excitement and joy. How would the table look like- would it have a glass top? What pattern would it's legs have? Would the table have two layers or just one? She cannot wait enough to touch the surface- will it have a matte finish or a glossy look. She didn't have any expectations- she was just waiting to touch the surface with her hands- the table that will be the thread connecting her present to her fond memorable childhood.

Her thoughts are flooded with her journey thus far. It was not a smooth ride from her childhood home in Nagercoil to her current home in Nashville. But, she had pulled along so elegantly, treading carefully where she must, learning the lessons when she slipped and making firm strides later. She is so proud of the family she has built, one connection at a time- a beautiful family with her 3 kids and her husband who adore her. She couldn't ask for a better life. Over the years, she has also learnt to appreciate and find joy in the goodness around her- she had fewer complaints and so a peaceful, joyful life.

 But, she missed her parents and her birth home. The pandemic has made the longing worser. She had a very blessed childhood that she enjoyed with her lovely sisters. Her entire birth family is in India. Phone calls and WhatsApp chats keep the connections stronger. although virtual, they have helped to live together, sharing snippets of life very regularly- sharing pictures, sharing cooking recipes and having all the fun that is only possible with people who know so well from your self- forming years, inside out.

 A few months ago, while she was on a call with her dad, the call was abruptly disconnected. Repeated follow on calls dod not go through. She got anxious. 4hours later, her dad called to say that there was a powercut, thanks to the huge teak tree that stood infront of their house. Apparently, there was a huge gust of wind, and the thicker stems interrupted with the power line, cutting down the weakest link. The TNEB guys were very puzzled to diagnose the cause of powercut. When they found the reason after a long struggle, they complained and suggested about cutting the teak tree. Her father joked that while squirrels running over power lines can disrupt power, why not a majestic teak tree. They laughed heartily. 

Then he asked, ' Anne dear, do you remember this teak tree?'. Anne was blank- 'which teak tree are you referring to, dad?'. Dad replied, "Oh, it's the tree you planted 30 years ago!" Anne was elated with joy, as her father drew her memory to the blur image in her mind, of 30 years ago. 

She was 12 years old and was in her sixth grade. Her sister and she had refreshed themselves after returning from school. They were served the perfectly brittle, layered vegetable puff and a piece of honey cake for a snack. They were competing on who peels the layers of the puff perfectly, and had fun poking into each others layers. They also detested the vegetable stuffing, but mom was always strict about completing ones plate- so there was no escape. 

 As they were goofing around on the snack, dad arrived on his Honda. He was carrying two bags with a few leaves popping up through the top. Running to receive dad was a great opportunity to escape the blandness of the vegetables in the puff. They hurriedly stuffed the layers into their mouth and ran to dad, peeping into the bags. After dad refreshed himself, he asked for a shovel and a bucket of water. The girls got excited about a gardening activity with dad. While Anne's sister laboriously carried a bucket of water, Anne ran with a shovel.

 Dad dug two pits on either side of the house, wetted the ground  and pulled out the bags. There were two tiny saplings- with the freshness and hope only a little baby sapling can spread. Each of them got to plant a sapling into the pit that dad just dug. After they placed them into the pits, dad closed the pits with more wet soil.

 Ever since then, it became a regular habit for the duo to water their saplings, paying close attention to its growth. They saw it grow from a tiny baby sapling to leafing broad leaves to branching out several shoots, until their barks firmed up and grew into a tree. By this time, they were old enough to go to university, which required them to stay in hostels. Their visits home were spaced in regular intervals. Whenever they did, they compared their tree with each others and had fun teasing each other about it.

 Slowly, the banalities of life took on, and they were each on their way to earn livelihoods, and later build their own families. Their parents looked after the trees very fondly, as they continued to grow wide and firm. Afterall, the trees were now gentle reminders of their daughters.

 After this detour into memory lane, her father took a deep sigh and  suggested something unusual on the phone call 'Anne dear, now that TNEB employees have began complaining, I don't think they will let the trees stand in for long. I would like to partake of them, and transfer them to you and your sister'. Anne was perplexed- how could he transfer a huge tree across oceans? That's when he chuckled and proposed his brilliant idea- 'Its an old tree, and can make good furnishing. Why don't we use it to furnish your new home?'. This got Anne thinking. She replied that she will give a careful thought and revert a few hours later. 

 After a few hours she called up dad and said, rather sullenly, " Dad! It's so sad to cut down a tree that had such life to it, giving us joyful memories and teaching us valuable lessons on not withering with strong winds. But, I guess it is eventually inevitable-if not now, then some other time. I have been looking for a dining table all over my town, and couldn't find an impressive, comfortable one. Can we use the tree to make a strong dining table". Dad consoled her, comforting her back from her sadness and agreed to her proposal. 

 He called out for the woodcutter, and stood beside him, as the woodcutter cut down the tree ever so carefully. Then he invited the carpenter to carve the dining table, within their house premises. He ensured that the table was perfect, with no blemishes, no scratches. Finally, he sought the help of a shipping agency to ship the table across to his lovely daughter. 

 As she was relishing on this memory, a van arrived at her gate. They verified the address, and handed over the receipts along with the letter to her from her dad. He had signed: "Dear Anne, this is by far the best of my gifts to you- it is a part of your childhood, and a treasure that you can take pride in passing over to your kids. I hope all the meals that you eat from this table fill you with energy, bring you good health and unbounded joy. It's such a huge blessing to touch a part of your childhood everyday as you go along with your monotonous life. Isn't that beautiful- just like you are to me? Pass this favour on- allow your kids to nurture their own trees. It will enamour them and will be great reminders of their childhood home. It will also teach them valuable skills. Pass my love to them! You are loved immensely."

Friday, July 22, 2022

Human(oid) Robots

They tried, wired, and rewired—
To build a humanoid robot:
Defining tasks, programming actions,
Teaching different languages and navigations.
Measuring its learning:
Rate of memory absorption,
Speed of computing,
Hours of productivity,
Time for recharging.

Until they realized,
They could make robots of humans.
If one human can turn a cog of a wheel,
100 humans can turn a wheel,
1 million humans can speed up the Earth’s rotation,
100 million humans can accelerate the Earth’s revolution!

So they lure us:
20 years of learning,
40 years of producing,
Rewarding us with scores and crores—
These carrots dangle before our eyes,
Ensuring our wilful surrender.
Collective human robots,
With a common goal,
Of dying within – for physical existence
To create an Earth that is unlike Earth!
Also published at: https://iselemagazine.com/2023/08/30/two-poems-savitha/

Tuesday, July 5, 2022

Good or Bad?

I swatted a bloodthirsty mosquito;

She tumbled down into a spiders web,

The spider, who was awaiting her breakfast

Quickly wrapped her silky thread around the accidental mosquito-

With her dexter acrobatics:

Using her eight limbs and single dot of mouth,

And devoured the sullen prey

Enjoying her moment.

Now, is this spider who got an accidental breakfast my pet?

Was the spider having a good day,

Or the mosquito having a bad day?

Wednesday, June 22, 2022

The Stub

You had your morning coffee-

Like you always did;

Half-smoked your favorite cigarette,

While devouring the newspaper-

Like you always did;

Had a hearty laugh over local politics-

Like you always did;

Fondly requested for your favorite brinjal mash-

Like you always did;

You asked for help to get hotwater-

Like you always did;

You walked into the bathroom-

Like you always did;

And then we heard the loud thud-

You enjoyed the waters, we laughed.

But, you walked out of life-

Just like your many sneaks to the neighbourhood stores;

"You" dissolved into thin air,

With the smoky air still in your nostrils

As our grief engulfed,

I spot and hold:

The stub you left that morning,

Still wet with your lip-prints,

And the indented crevices of your fingers,

Still lingering on it:

That moment,

"You" comforted me out of my grief

Your love outstood your disappearance.

Friday, May 20, 2022

There's no social echelon

Standing on a virtually lower echelon

I look up at you:

The virtually shining glitter,

Held on a virtual pedestal.

I do a virtual prostrate:

Folded hands, towel within armpit,

Diligently abiding by your every word,

Squirming to voice my opinion:

For you know the best,

As I am made to believe:

I am a lowly subject,

Your side-kick,

Non-existent in your thought-world;

Your noticing of me is my previlege:

A boon; a milestone.

I elate with your every win:

Step after step,

Yard after yard,

Mile after mile;

I blindly trust you,

Ignorantly tread beside you;

Eyes sternly set on you.

Until I realize that

I could own my life;

I could own my opinion;

I could own my voice;

I could own my wars;

And, I could own my win;

However insignificant it is;

All that matters is the joy my soul feels,

And the smile it emanates!



Saturday, February 12, 2022

Journey to now...

 A journey into the now...
I jump from peak to peak
Gasping for breath
Every jump a staggering pain;
As I carry MY bag
Of the past:
Childhood forlorns- forgotten kindness;
Love longed for- ignoring the warmth and aroma;
Scathing betrayals- fondness in shambles;
Latching onto unkempt promises-
Unveiled surprises largely ignored;
The bag gets heavier with each peak,
The bag gets heavier with each now;
With curved spine I straddle,
Wishing for a hop, wishing for a jump.
All I need is a now of pause;
All I need is a now of watch;
All I need is a now of disown;
All I need is a now of disarm;
All I need is a now of abandon;
All I need is a now of gratitude;
All I need is a now of looking up high:
Wheeeeee goes the bag- the spine curving,
The hop hindering, the pain propagating bag.
Wheeeeee goes the bag, tumbling down and down into the filth:
- for that is where it grew
- for that is where it belongs!
And yayyy goes the back- the painless,
Weightless, needless back.
Yay goes the back, straightening up and up:
For that is how it is designed
For that is how it stands-Tall and Humble!