Journey to now...

 A journey into the now...
I jump from peak to peak
Gasping for breath
Every jump a staggering pain;
As I carry MY bag
Of the past:
Childhood forlorns- forgotten kindness;
Love longed for- ignoring the warmth and aroma;
Scathing betrayals- fondness in shambles;
Latching onto unkempt promises-
Unveiled surprises largely ignored;
The bag gets heavier with each peak,
The bag gets heavier with each now;
With curved spine I straddle,
Wishing for a hop, wishing for a jump.
All I need is a now of pause;
All I need is a now of watch;
All I need is a now of disown;
All I need is a now of disarm;
All I need is a now of abandon;
All I need is a now of gratitude;
All I need is a now of looking up high:
Wheeeeee goes the bag- the spine curving,
The hop hindering, the pain propagating bag.
Wheeeeee goes the bag, tumbling down and down into the filth:
- for that is where it grew
- for that is where it belongs!
And yayyy goes the back- the painless,
Weightless, needless back.
Yay goes the back, straightening up and up:
For that is how it is designed
For that is how it stands-Tall and Humble!