AMDM is a project that I was leading so passionately, that was passed over to my team member when I was on leave, without my knowledge. It was excruciatingly painful because the project was very dear to me, and my own team member backstabbed me. Ever since AMDM and even before, I had a grudging bitterness for the colleague, and couldn't even see him in face - it was always a boiling rage within me. Couldn't gather myself to forgive him. It was always flooding with bad emotions everytime I happened to see him. Even today, when I hear AMDM or any developments along that direction, it tries to provoke me.
Until I encountered Matt 18 on the Easter day. The Lord spoke to me - if I forgive you of everything and you still hold on to old grudges, would that not bother the Lord. As usual, my raging mind began it's logical arguments. But I submitted myself to the Lord and said that I will go to him and make a closure to the bitterness. As difficult as it was, I did as was instructed.
Now, it's not my load anymore. The Good Lord will take care of everything. He will guide me. He will make me shine, beyond all the filth, beyond all my transgressions, beyond all my pains and shame. God IS powerful. Amen!
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