Sunday

Have been fighting some thoughts, specifically on being ignored by a couple, since a couple of weeks. After whining and cribbing for a while, I had struggled to stifle the thoughts yesterday. This morning, as I woke up, the thoughts rise within. Tried ignoring and then tried to brush it off - tried telling it to go away- nothing helped. 

Sunday mornings are usually crowded with activities - Wake up by 830-9AM, cook pancake for Bloom (Egg+milk+sugar). As he eats his breakfast, I prepare his lunch. We then leave for the pool by 1015-1030. As his classes begin at 11AM, I also get into the pool, and try myself with swimming. Today was different - didn't get into the pool in the beginning. Sat alone in the poolside, for lack of company to swim within. 

The thoughts were crippling - I had earlier showed a tinge of outburst to my son. As I sat there, I closed my eyes for a couple of moments. Everything else faded away, except for a 'I like to move it, move it..' being sung by a boy in the pool. Nothing else was heard. That's when I realized the power of just closing eyes. As I sat there with closed eyes, thoughtless and mindful, I saw a bright light pervading inside me. And suddenly, there was much peace! Since then, there is no looking back. I will grow independent - emotionally strong, forgiving and happy, peaceful. I will grow into a happy being.. I am seeing it already.

Today was our time, and we had splendid time. We will grow together - stronger and braver inside. We will grow into lovely, happy beings.